20 Weeks Pregnant! Feelings and update

So in a 'normal' pregnancy I'm now half way there! (if you go by Rocket's pregnancy then I'm quite over half way already! That's crazy!)

 For some reason, this pregnancy is whizzing by alot faster than Rocket's pregnancy did. Maybe its because I'm running around after him, maybe it''s because I'm more chilled now.. or just because as you grow up, time disappears!

I'm quite OK with the speed of it though. I feel him move alot each day now.
 He has his quiet times but then will give me a big kick and I will know all is well.

Prior to getting pregnant, I had spent a few months working hard to lose weight and I lost 2 stone and was feeling a lot better in myself and I honestly believe that helped me get pregnant after trying completely unsuccessfully for 20 months.

 Recently I have been struggling with my body image and the way pregnancy is changing my body. Being a bigger girl I was aware that I wouldn't have a 'bump' for quite a while but after my stomach shrinking earlier in the year, watching the baby push out the fat was absolutely terrifying for me and I haven't really talked about it til now.

Luckily in the past week I have started to see a difference myself (I'm not too sure if strangers could tell though!) but even with the dreaded 'B' belly, my upper tummy seems to have 'popped' and I know that it's because Rocket ruined my stomach muscles and that Bumble is still only up to my belly button but have a feeling I'm going to be huge by the end of this pregnancy, especially if I go past the 34 week mark!

I love nothing more than waking up first thing in the morning and looking down to see if the bump has grown! I remember doing the same thing when pregnant with Rocket and it puts a smile on my face.

Rocket is now really into becoming a big brother, he talks about holding him in November and how my tummy is going to grow and how he will help with nappies, it's so sweet.
 When I listen to the baby's heartbeat on the Doppler, Rocket has to listen to the baby in HIS tummy! He tells strangers too ha ha.

My 20 week scan isn't until July 23rd as I wanted a specific day so my husband could come so it's a little later than when I had Rockets. But as I had a 16 week scan that seems to have tided me over, especially as I already know he's a little boy.

I had follow ups after having borderline high BP but that seems to be under control now and the next consultants appointment I have is shortly after my 20 week scan.

As it's only a couple of weeks away I leave it there and I'll update with the scan pictures on the 23rd!

16 Weeks Pregnant (tomorrow)

Wow! time sure is flying by now, condidering I found out at 3 weeks with a HGC level of just 20 something!

I turn 16 weeks tomorrow then on Saturday I have a private gender scan booked so hopefully we can find out just who is growing in there! I didn't find out til the NHS 20 week scan with Rocket and it wasn't a brilliant experience as the ultrasound tech wasn't the most friendly person in the world but I totally understand that the anomily scan is there for them to do measurements and not to spend time explaining things to the parents and looking for the sex, so infact we were lucky we even found out.

This time I wanted it to be a special experience where I could see on the big screen and share the experience with family (mum, dad and Rocket). Bumbles daddy can't make the scan so will be bombarded with pics after, and il try find a creative way to tell him the sex rather than just blurting it out on the phone!

But I couldn't think of a better way to spend my upcomig birthday money than bonding more with the little bellybug! I'm sooooooo excited!

Girl or Boy? What am I?

Symptoms wise, i'm still suffering with dizzyness, which started around 12 weeks and I even had a bout of it at Cybher! It's nothing to do with not eating or  my blood pressure, iv'e been reassured by the doctor.

Stretching pains I'm getting alot this week (15-16) lots of pains and period type aches but the doppler picks Bumble up everytime and it's a godsend having that for reassurance.

Still no hint of a bump, just pushed out spare tyre! But I looked back at pregnancy pics with Rocket and my bump with him started around 19 weeks so thats not long to go.. I just dont like the looking extra chunky look!

Finally, I have started feeling the occasional little flutter which I am sure is baby!! It's not all the time and sometimes I won't feel it for a day but it's awesome to know those little movements will be getting stronger soon and the full blown kicks!

I'l update next week as I have 3 antinatal/consultant/pain clinic appointments next week!!

Oh and i'm sure il be posting the gender on Saturday night ;)